The invisible demon

Not felt or not seen

Not very well known

Which naively to most,

Makes it so hard to believe.

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I once couldn’t believe

Like so many around me

Until suddenly

It too, so stealthily found me.

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The invisible demon

Nests deeply within

So deep and so hidden

With the most incredible camouflage

Fit for an epic battle.

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It sounds so real

Like a thought bubble coming out of you

It sounds just like you

So it must be

It must be

You.

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Your doubts, your worries, your fears

All reinforced through that familiar voice you hear.

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Fighting to live within you

Convincing you of its worth

Deceived by its voice, sounding so true

Struggling to distinguish

Which voice is really you.

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When it consumes and overwhelms

Chest tightened, vision blind

It gets harder to breathe, to feel, and to think

It hurts so much inside.

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Constantly reminded that the world doesn’t want you

It’s not true what they say, your demon chimes

They really don’t care

You’ve made it all up

All up in your mind.

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You fail, you lose, yet you only consume

The air we breathe

The space we need

To keep wasting a life unworthy to you.

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You fight to be free

Of the bondage and torture

The inner demon holds on

Not wanting to be done

Until life can no longer go on.

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When your strength sees through

The deceptive demon masked as you

You call for help, for love from others

Yet when they come to your side

Your demon reminds

You’re fine

You’re fine

You’re fine.

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Your loved ones want to help

Suddenly you go mute, you don’t know what to do

But you can’t shake the overwhelming guilt

Of asking

When the voice inside reminds

You’re not worthy

But also

You’re fine.

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Your sunny disposition turns to

Gloomy introversion.

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Your mind races and dreams

Of what life could, should, would be

But you fear sharing with others

For that demon reminds.

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The invisible voice reminds you

Nobody cares

You’re not worthy

Nobody cares.

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Your achievements and triumphs

All vanish into thin air

Yet your failures and letdowns

Never escape you

Always there.

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You’re not worthy

Nobody cares.

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Tricking you into thinking

That the sinking feeling

That causes your reeling

Is exactly what you deserve.

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When it seems too impossible

Too much to bear

Too much to mind

The demon is winning

Is winning

You’re not fine.

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You try to break free

Of the invisible shackles

The demon has placed on thee.

You try to believe

That the demon is a thieve

Of the life you’re meant to achieve.

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You try to believe

You try to break free

It’s not easy,

But someday you want to believe

You’ll finally be free.

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The squatting monster

Hidden inside you

Doesn’t need to remain

So long as

You let love guide you.

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The road seems bleak

The journey seems rough

But imagine someday

That the voice will go away

And life will feel normal

Life will be normal

One day.

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I believe that the sun will shine

Reminding me that this life

Is meant to be mine.

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Until then

I battle entirely within

I retreat and I hide

Feeling too weak to be alive

But I try

I try

I try.

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This life is meant to be mine.